Thursday, November 22, 2007

Ummm...i usually dont prefer to write too long especially on unplugged, but right now my head is literally paining, one i m really sad to see a fellow blogger Annie in deepshit and secondly i really hate when ppl get so weak and helpless for no bloody good!
Her condition reminds me my own break-up i had before i knew kay. I mean how does it feels when u r supposed to get married in the family court and u r left holding ur dick all day long and ur partner doesnt turns up and u only get a phone call saying, it isnt worth defying ur own folks for someone whom u r going ard for only 2 years????? Yes those were the exact words and she broke up!
We came to know each other in the most unusual way one can ever imagine, i wont go much in detail about it, when i m saying it was unusual believe me, it was really unusual. Read here if u really need to know what a jackass i was....
Anyways we had a 2 years affair with each other and during that time her parents who r based in kerala never bothered to see whether their daughter was alive or not, but ya they did came into picture when we decided to get married. They thought my job was way too risky and their daughter's future was in jeopardy....And Shital who knew what i was right from the day one who was once proud to walk besides me started having problems with that too. I still cant believe that i requested for a transfer to a different dept for which my mom kicked me out of the house and didnt spoke to me for 3 years straight coz she thought she gave birth to a coward who got scared of his future and sidelined himself from his responsiilities...:( bloodyhell ,i still get goozebums when i recall the humiliation i went thru in those years.... Agreed i was a casanova prior to all that, agreed i slept with a variety of females, but trust me i gave everything i cud to keep that relationship on, i did a lot of things against my usual self and yet got royally screwed up, but never mind what i learnt from it was that i was 100% sure of my sincerity towards it till it cud stay alive, but if the other person doesnt gives a damn abt that u cant do much abt it...I cant believe when i think back and see myself drunk 24/7 even on duty hours, luckily things changed i got thrown out of mumbai on a punishment basis and my word! i found kay and things changed completely....
And after all this when that person woke up from her dream and found me happy again, since then she has left her home twice and came to me and i had to spend money from my own pocket to put her back where she belonged(Some day i m gonna kick her ass and get all that money reimbursed), i get all sorts of emotional, horrifying, threatening,abusive and even sexy sms at times from her, i also get emails and IMs from some 250 plus diff ids which she has created to screw me from time to time...Initially it used to be very irritating, now it tickles my funny bones...
I read and hear a lot of ppl saying that love happens only once in ur lifetime....BULL SHIT! It keeps happening as long as u dont get what u r destined for and thats the BOTTOMLINE coz the SOUTHPAW said so!!!

17 comments:

Cinderella. said...

Lolz...Southie...heck does not she realize that you have been married for good and are very much in love...!!!!!!!!!!

I know irksome things have the knack of becoming funny after a point of time....!!!
Goodluck with the crappy mails and funny texts though.

Take care.

p.s : I loved your previos template. What did you do to it ?
And the new hot look your blog adorns is awesome....

Keshi said...

WOW Southy d u read my mind or something? Cos I wanted to write a post on behalf of Annie too! Cos I believe she's on the brink of a breakdown. I will do it next week cos I want her to opne her eyes. As u may hv seen my comments there, I was being very honest with her.

It really makes me shocked to see her that way. that a woman can go so weak and believe that there is only one LOVE in this whole wide world for her! I know Annie can be strong and that she'll come out of this some day. But as friends of her, we hv to help her out. And u did well by this great post of ur's, sharing ur experience here. Wonderful job!


Ur right...love can happen MANY times in one's life...if only u learn to let go od ur past loves and not get so obsessed like Annie is rite now.

U did well Southy HUGGGGGGGGZ!

Keshi.

Southpaw unplugged said...

@Cinderella
Haha, she knows that very well and thats what makes her go so creative...:P

I loved your previos template. What did you do to it ?
And the new hot look your blog adorns is awesome....****Thats page is still intact, this one's a completely new blog, since i havent updated there for a long long time i didnt sent u the access to that page...:) and Thanks a lot...:)

@Keshi
This was on my mind from quite sometime but yesterday i did it. Whoever goes thru that situation gets derailed initially but one has to get out of it pretty soon coz life has to go on with or without anybody walking besides u. Hope she also realises that soon and stays happy and in peace.

Keshi said...

**life has to go on with or without anybody walking besides u.

thats exactly wut I told her too!


Keshi.

ishita said...

Reading Annie's posts always leave me very disturbed.

Life moves on but she's completely come to standstill ... *sigh*... and the way she so candidly expresses her pain and hurt, is heartwrenching...

Sometimes we can't handle it all on our own Raj...not all of us are strong enough to shed the past...to make that resolve to let go of a love that's now simply one sided or faded...

..... I know that feeling so well.

though I am the one who always advocates love doesn't happen just once but many times over...we have to explore every opportunity rather than shy away from it ...

Meeting someone new and keeping our mind open to possibilites...

then again i think sumtimes in blogs only a facet of our lives is reflected....annie I feel pens her deepest feelings and thoughts in her blog... in moments of extreme weakness and longing...

my hope is that at other times, she's doing better and making an effort to be happy and move on...

I know that sometimes I only blog when I am very moved and touched... her blog could be for the times when she really needs to get it out of her system...

just tellin u what i feel..


and as far as ur ex is concerned...well what can i say... flattering in sum ways and buggin in many...huh :)...

blame it on ur asar raj :)) ... nahi bhoola paayi *sigh*

:P

Ps : is this comment longer that ur post :O

ishita said...

than** ~ typo :P

chalo sahi hai...typo ke bahaane gaana fir se sunne ko mila :)

*sigh*

Jewel Rays said...

Hi Southpaw,

Your post left me speechless for a while. I could identify with a few things written in there.:)It was a lovely read. The part that i particularly loved is, "i found kay and things changed completely...." I have to agree with ya statement that love can happen many times. I guess that is if we allow. Thanks for sharing your heart.A step up in knowing ya.:)

About Annie, I don't know her much to conclude anything on her subject. But i did read the link. i read some parts where she said she can't live without him and stuff as well. Hmm...i don't really know what to say to that. But i sure don't think thats the way it should be. But than again, Its hard to conclude anything cause i know its not in a fingerclick that someone gets over a past/heartbreak.And each have different approaches in finding their ways out. As long as it doesn't turn into anything drastic. I hope she is aware that her reason for living should not be revolved around the guy.

Take Care Pawman.

CheerS:)

Keshi said...

Southy read my new comments in Annie's post today (if/when she publishes em).

Im out of this mess...no more advice for her from me. Did u read some of the commentors STUPID remarks there? Like LIFE DOESNT GIVE U 2ND CHANCES! Bah! How discouraging some ppl r and they add to the misery of Annie.


I felt Im spending all my energy and precious breath on someone who dun wanna listen but just brood on and on and on. So I told Annie that I've had enough of her very NEGATIVE attitude and Im not gonna be a part of this breakup saga anymore. Cos if something more DRASTIC than that happens, I dun wanna be a part of it. She seriously disturbs me.


Anyways hv a good wknd!
Keshi.

Southpaw unplugged said...

@Ishita
I hope what u feel is true and nothing drastic is in store...
Hv a nice weekend...:)

@Jewelrays
Even i dont know her and just like u certain parts of her write ups reflected that she was seriously disturbed and thats what reminded me of my past.
U tc and hv a nice weekend prettygirl...:)

@Keshi
Yeah i read the comments. I also read an annonymous fellow who wants to fuck everyone who thinks she's mad, as if only mad ppl need counselling....

Im out of this mess...no more advice for her from me. Did u read some of the commentors STUPID remarks there? Like LIFE DOESNT GIVE U 2ND CHANCES! Bah! How discouraging some ppl r and they add to the misery of Annie.******
u r right its been a tradition in this blogworld that if u r happy thy r all happy, if u abuse somebody they all abuse in tandom, if u r sad they'll all cry and if u r doing wrong they'll encourage u to the core. Anyway, maybe she knows all this more than u and me...
Tc and hv a nice weekend...:)

Keshi said...

tnxx Southy!

I dun think Annie knows wut kinda BAD advice she's getting in her blog. Anyways its not my problem anymore cos even she thinks 'I dunno her'. Seriously do I hv to know her in real to read wuts going on in her mind? Cos her blog is where she writes her deepest thoughts and cos of that I believe her readers wud be the ONLY ppl who know her really well...not the ppl she meets everyday!


Anyways I dun wanna be in a place where my motives r mistaken. So yeah, Im not going there anymore.


Keshi.

Southpaw unplugged said...

@Keshi
Yes i read all that yesterday and i can understand what u mean.....As far as i m concerned i usually conclude on anybody right on the first instance but on her i betrayed my judgemental germs and m quite disappointed with that.

Keshi said...

u mean u were wrong abt her? I dun think so.

Keshi.

Southpaw unplugged said...

@Keshi
Ummmm...i dont know, i m just disappointed.

Keshi said...

me too...call me judgmental but if we decide to pour our feelings out on a blog, we r going to be judged. arent we?

Keshi.

Southpaw unplugged said...

@Keshi
That is right as long as we know who's saying what....

Keshi said...

yes..but anyways Im not gonna advise ppl so easily from now on. Cos all I hear in the end is a 'u dont KNOW me so back off'.

Keshi.

shooting star said...

As always raj bhai ur RIGHT.....!!! we do so much for someone and they dont care....we should just dump them and move on....
ur stor reminds me of some things of my past..thankfully i learnt my lessons on time and now am with someone who values me for the person i am ...however flawed i am!!!